I should not tell you that!

I am in the middle of a feeling. In dilemma. Whether it is my best friend or somebody I never talk to. 

Dear best friend, to be honest. I doubt my feeling on you. Is it true that I have no feeling on you any more? Or I still do but I'm lying myself about it, because you already have a girlfriend? Or I want your attention, but I'm seeking it from a wrong person? 

Dear somebody I never talk to, well we do talk to each other but once or twice only. That makes the silent between us are so damn awkward. But, you really distract my focus, you drought my ayes away from the main point to you, who may or may not be real in my life as what I always dream of. 

Straight away to the conclusion, I don't know what I feel right now, but I hope its not going to eat me.

Damn!